It's been a rough readjustment for me. I always thought that when I was
an army wife the first time, it was rough. This time seems even more
so.



I guess the issue here this time is NO support. The last time, I had
the support of my fellow army spouses and the US Army as a whole. This
time, nothing. I will in time, but right now, I am in limbo. Being that
my husband is not really assigned to a post or a real unit, the spouses
and family members of soldiers in training seem to get the shaft. I
have tried to contact a few different people in the army, all of which
really do not have an answer for me. I can only imagine, if it is this
difficult for me, A seasoned army wife...How hard is it for a young,
newly married spouse with a husband who has been sent off to basic
training and school with NO idea what to expect. I dont like this, and
I vow right now, here and now to try my hardest to make this change so
that no spouse has to go through the pain and adjustment alone. I dont
know what I can do, and what I will accomplish, but I am going to give
it my best effort to try and change things for the new spouses.



Ed is doing very well. He sounds great and seems to be enjoying
soldiering again. He sounds much happier than he has for the past for
years and for that, I am glad.He is tired, and worn out, but again,
this too shall pass. Some people just have the US Military in their
blood and Ed seems to be one of those people. How could he not be? He
grew up an Army Brat, quite a few of his family members including his
great grandfather in which who he was named after flew fighter jets in
the US Military. Ed is a great soldier and a great leader and even
though my heart aches for him not being here, this is all for a good
cause. Ed is good at what he does and I am proud of him. I am proud of
my soldier, and all the men and women of the US Armed Forces who
sacrifice everything on a daily basis, just so I can sit here and write
this blog.



I guess the point in this blog is this....Follow your dreams. Sometimes
you have to endure painful things to gain the outcome you want. I know
there will be more seperations, its a given in the military. But I also
know the reason why it has to be done and I could not be more proud of
the man I married for doing these things, for me, our children, our
childrens children, and also YOU!



I have sat here feeling sorry for myself for the past 12 days. Sure I
have had good days and bad, but it is time for me to woman up again and
be the great army wife that I know I am. The great Army wife that Ed
knows is holding home down while he is gone doing what he needs to do
for us.



In closing, I just want to say Thank You to everyone who loves Ed and I
and truly supports our decision of Ed enlisting back into the army. It
was not an easy decision, but the right one. It still hurts, and I miss
him like crazy! But we will be together again soon.



I am getting to visit him a couple of days on Easter weekend. I am so very excited.

It will be a short visit, and I will have to say " see you later" again to him, but we will be back as a family soon after.



When you go to bed at night, look around...I am sure your spouse or
significant other is there. Treasure that. Because there are men and
women like me who go to bed alone everynight staring at the ceiling
wondering where their spouse is sleeping that night.